Too many people dying and getting sick.
But the man that pastored me, loved me, prayed for me, gave me wisdom, made me laugh when I cried, and let me know he was my father when I had no father. Died October 22nd and I was feeling that gut wrenching pain that you can’t explain. So, I needed to be around my big cousin Stacy who is only a drive a way and made it happen Thank God. A few days there not in my world just helped me remember that I belong and that I am loved.
My final night I spent it with a few more cousins just being together laughing, talking, shopping being normal. It really was all I needed to further confirm that I belong and that I am where I need to be.
In this world that is such a gift because we seem to be faking something, trying to hard at something, pleasing everyone and if we can just BE ahhh!!!! AT 40 and at this stage where I have had so many eye opening moments, faced death more than once I just want to be loved and belong.
To you that reads this I don’t know if you are like me but we have to sometimes see them because we are human. But also because people have a tendency to take us for granted and because we need change. But also because if you are anything like me, you need a break!!! And we are in a constant state of transformation becoming who we are always meant to be just don’t wait to long life is SHORT!