Feels good to belong and beloved…

Too many people dying and getting sick.

But the man that pastored me, loved me, prayed for me, gave me wisdom, made me laugh when I cried, and let me know he was my father when I had no father.  Died October 22nd and I was feeling that gut wrenching pain that you can’t explain.  So, I needed to be around my big cousin Stacy who is only a drive a way and made it happen Thank God.  A few days there not in my world just helped me remember that I belong and that I am loved.

My final night I spent it with a few more cousins just being together laughing, talking, shopping being normal.  It really was all I needed to further confirm that I belong and that I am where I need to be.

In this world that is such a gift because we seem to be faking something, trying to hard at something, pleasing everyone and if we can just BE ahhh!!!!  AT 40 and at this stage where I have had so many eye opening moments, faced death more than once I just want to be loved and belong.

To you that reads this I don’t know if you are like me but we have to sometimes see them because we are human.  But also because people have a tendency to take us for granted and because we need change.  But also because if you are anything like me, you need a break!!!  And we are in a constant state of transformation becoming who we are always meant to be just don’t wait to long life is SHORT!

 

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